Love, Lust and Conspiracy

She is my Loving Mistress and I Her Slave.

2012-02-15T18:30:00.000-08:00

Excerpt from, "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" An Erotic Romance

By the time she was done, my hands and feet were secured and my breasts and nipples were being sucked into bigger and longer shapes.

"There," she said brushing her hands. "Does that feel good?" All I could do was nod slightly but she took that as a 'yes'. "Good, let's turn it up a little and then I'll do the other end."

When she increased the suction, I could feel my nipples elongating and my breasts being pulled. It was strangely exciting. The next thing I felt was my cock being sucked into some kind of tube. She adjusted something and the devices slowly sucked and released, sucked and released. Then she stood back to admire her work.

"So far, so good," she said. "I think you're properly occupied for the time being." Then, she leaned close to my ear and whispered, "I'm going to take a nice long shower now. Don't go anywhere!"

"Wait," I started to say but she interrupted me with, "Uh-uh..., don't complain too much or I'll have to spank your pretty butt and I have other things in mind for that. Just relax and enjoy the sensations as your breasts, nipples and clit get sucked bigger and bigger. That's a special estrogen skin cream I covered them with."

She left the door open, got into the shower and kept an eye on me as I squirmed against the on-and-off suction pulses. I was getting more sexually excited by the second and she was smiling at my facial contortions. She finally got out, grabbed a towel and closed the big mirrored door to her bathroom so I could see myself, helpless and completely at her mercy.

The image was extremely stimulating. Perhaps because I had always secretly wanted to experience such things but was embarrassed to consciously admit it. Doing it this way, I was being forced, albeit willingly, to submit to those things that I subconsciously considered perverted. As the submissive 'victim' however, the perversion was someone else's desire. I was the innocent.

After twenty minutes, I was beginning to wonder how long she'd leave me like that but then, the door slid open and there, in the soft backlighting of the bathroom, stood my captor wearing only the little gold heart I had given her. My heart skipped several beats as I thought about doing every possible sexual thing with this gorgeous woman, everything and anything. She had become my whole world.

"Do I look all right my slave," she asked slithering toward me. "I'm squeaky clean..., everywhere..., inside and out. Want to see?"

"Yes!" was all I could say.

"Good!" She ran her hands over my butt, down each leg and back up again until I shivered a little. "Goodie, you're feeling horny." She checked the clear plastic sleeve that was sucking my cock and made a soft "Ummmm" sound. "I think your clit looks bigger than usual Kimmy."

She increased the vacuum, got on the bed with her legs over the footboard and positioned her pussy below my face. "Suck me slave! Make me cum at least three times."

My lips and tongue plunged between her soft lips and I played and sucked and kissed until she began to tremble but, suddenly, she moved away. "Whew..., not so fast; I want to play for awhile, besides, I'm feeling full. Empty my breasts slave!"

She changed position and said, "Drink," and pushed my head down to her breast. Then she relaxed like a sunbather on a lounge. "Ah..., that's it. Service my breasts and I might reward you."

Transgendered? Yes it’s one of THOSE kinds of stories!

2012-01-30T09:06:00.000-08:00

Love, Lust and Conspiracy is a story about Love but is it acceptable? I mean, come on; a story about a boy who becomes a girl...? Really! And not even completely a girl, a "Shemale"...!

But, wait a minute now; such a thing is no longer unusual. And why shouldn't every person be allowed to enjoy the happiness of being who they really are and finding a loving soul mate? When a beautiful woman falls in love with a troubled young man and helps him become a beautiful "T-Girl", the disdain of the world be damned, their lives become happy and complete. Such a deep passionate connection is very rare, for anyone, and should be cherished, treasured and lived to the fullest.

This erotic, hot and steamy story is for adults who enjoy a tale about true love between a girl and a transgendered boy (to girl). Get the complete story at Amazon.com and read it on your Computer, Fire, Kindle, IPad or other electronic device.

This story contains explicit sexual play, light B&D teasing, anal and oral play but mostly, it's about the love of two beautiful people in a world of intrigue and danger.

I Love Every Inch of You Kari...!

2011-12-03T10:02:00.000-08:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy": Every Inch!

"Oh my God Kimmy, please, please, I need you. I want to cum! Please..., touch my clit. Please kiss it! I love the way you make me feel and I'm so close. Don't make me wait any longer!"

She trembled when my mouth surrounded her clit so I sucked for a few seconds and moved back up to her breasts. As anxious as we both were, I couldn't get enough of caressing every part of her but, when I sucked on a nipple, she pulled my head away.

"Oh my God..., that feels so good but I haven't pumped them today and they're full."

"Full...?"

She froze for a second and then sighed and closed her eyes. "Full of milk. I've had to take hormones ever since that hysterectomy and, for the last year, I've been lactating and I don't want to gross you out. I'm sorry. Oh damn, now I've ruined our whole night!"

I pulled myself up and ran my fingertips across her forehead. "Look at us. You're worried because you think you're too big for my cock to feel anything and you're ashamed that your beautiful breasts are doing what they're designed to do." She started to say something but I put my finger on her lips and continued.

"I was ashamed because I look, sound and feel like a girl and I worried because my cock is too small for you to feel anything but frustration." Her sad expression started to fade. "I think we have a deal..., don't we?" She nodded. "Well, I want to keep it. Anything..., remember?"

She sighed and hugged me. "But I don't want to do anything that might turn you off."

"Kari..., you did not turn me off. Are your breasts sensitive when they're full?"

"They're always sensitive but more so when I haven't pumped them for a while. Why?"

"And, does it feel good when I suck them?"

"Yes."

"Then, let me suck them now. Let me drink your milk and make you feel good. My happiness is only real if I can make you happy. I'll be gentle, I promise."

"But, I've never done this before and sometimes it feels so good it..., it might make me cum!"

"Good! If it does, I will have found a new way to make the girl of my dreams happy!"

I started sucking and milk began to dribble into my mouth so I massaged her breast and sucked a little harder. She gasped and pushed her breast toward me. "That feels so good," she moaned, "I've never had.... Oh my God that feels good!"

She writhed and squirmed while I held her close and drained every drop. "I love you Kari..., every part of you, everything about you." Then I started on her other breast. "And I love the taste of your milk!"

She trembled and jerked with little spasms as I emptied her other breast and when I moved down to suck on her clit, she groaned. "I'm so close. That's it Kimmy. That's it. Oh my goodness, yes, that's perfect, right there! Keep..., just..., yes, oh yes, oh –– my––God!"

I sucked and tongued her super sensitive clit for only a few seconds and suddenly, she bucked and closed her legs against my head. The smooth soft skin of her thighs felt deliciously warm against the sides of my face and I continued my oral assault as her trembling turned into spasmodic shaking.

"I'm cumming!" she wailed. "Yes, yes, oh my God!" –– And she inhaled a deep gasp –– "I'm cumming!" And, like the first time, her orgasm kept gaining power until she lost all sense of time and space, convulsing in pleasure and begging me to make her stop cumming. I held her clit to my lips and tongue until I thought she could stand no more and then kissed my way up to her mouth, wrapped my arms around her and squeezed until she stopped shaking. Tears flowed from her eyes and a raspy sounding, "Thank you" filled my heart with joy.

It must have been at least five minutes before she could speak but I still didn't want to let her go. I loved holding her. I loved the feeling of her skin against mine and I loved the way we wrapped around each other as if we were one and the same living being. Finally, her trembling stopped. She sighed and opened her eyes.

"I was so afraid I'd gross you out."

"But you didn't. I enjoyed it!" I grabbed a box of tissues and began drying the tears from her cheeks.

"Really...?"

"Yes, really...! Do you remember when you said I tasted as good as you hoped I would?"

"Ha, yes, why?"

"Did you mean it?"

"Yes Kimmy. I did. I love the way you taste and I love making you feel good!"

"Well...?" As I stared into her eyes, her expression slowly changed from a question to a grin. She squealed, grabbed me and hugged as tight as she could. "So, from now on...," I tried to say, but the choking pressure of her arms was too much and she released her grip with a soft, "oops." "Ah-hmm," I continued, "from now on, you'll have to let me empty your breasts..., every day! Okay...?"

She put her hands on the sides of my face and said, "Yes my love; yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!"

As we lay there in each other's arms, I asked, "Promise me something?"

"Anything...! What is it?"

"Of all things one could be embarrassed about, my secret was the worst and you got me past it, even made it exciting and fun. So please, if you want me to know something, please tell me, no matter what it is. I love you and I want you to be able to tell me anything. If there's something I can't or won't do, I'll say so but I'll still, now and forever, always love you, no matter what. Okay?"

Her arms wrapped around me in another one of her powerful hugs and she said, "Deal."

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Stop that Kimmy (Giggle) We don't have time for sex.

2011-11-27T09:14:00.000-08:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy": Guests for Dinner

I sat there smiling, thinking how lucky I was to have met her, and then decided to edit the video of our afternoon in Brazil and create her 'keepsake'. The hours flew by as I cut the boring parts of an empty bed, sequenced the parts we were in and finally, I sat back and watched the resulting movie.

"God, she is so beautiful," I thought as the images played on the screen. "I hope I can keep her as happy as she's made me."

The transitions, markers and other technical matters were what I should have been concentrating on, but the content kept pulling my thoughts away from video markers to breasts, legs and butts. I had to force myself to concentrate, to edit the raw footage into a finished movie Kari would enjoy but seeing us, seeing her facial expressions, her trembling and her spasms of pleasure, was just too much to ignore. Of course, I was prejudiced. It was us, me, having sex with the girl who had stolen my heart and I loved watching her scream with pleasure.

Alfred came in while I was smiling at Kari's afterglow in a quiet scene. "Dinner will be served at five Madam Kimmy," he said jarring me away from my thoughts and causing me to quickly click, 'stop' and close the video.

"Oh!" I yelped putting my hand on my chest. "You scared me. Whew!"

"Sorry for the intrusion Madam."

"No apology necessary Alfred; I was just so engrossed in getting this done, I didn't see you come in. Thank you though. I didn't realize it was so late, guess I'd better get ready."

"Yes Ma'am," he said and left.

When I went upstairs to freshen up, I found Kari taking a shower but, with soap in her eyes, she didn't notice me. I stood there, silently admiring her naked form until she rinsed off the soap and saw me. Then I smiled and started to undress.

"I hope you're just changing for dinner Kimmy because we don't have time for sex."

Putting on a pouting face was something I couldn't resist even though I was just changing. "Awwww..., I said as if her statement made me sad. I took off my skirt and blouse revealing my white bra and panties and whined, "Are you sure...?"

She stopped, stared and laughed. "You're too much but I have something to tell you and then we have to have dinner. We're having guests!"

"Oh, okay, I'll go change. Is it formal or casual?"

"Somewhere in between, I think you should wear that light grey jacket and skirt with heels. Think of it as an interview and I know you'll look absolutely stunning."

"Okay. I'll be ready in twenty minutes."

She got out and grabbed a towel. I took a step toward her and stopped. "Oops, I'd better go before you get me so excited that I rape you right here!" And, reluctantly, I backed up, turned and went to the other bathroom.

Later, Kari's guests arrived and we all sat on the patio waiting for Alfred to announce dinner. Jean, a middle aged woman and dean of admissions for a local college, said, "So Kimmy, I understand you're transitioning and it looks like you don't have far to go. Are you happy with your progress?"

My face turned red but Kari put her hand on my leg and said, "I'm sorry Kimmy. I didn't have a chance to tell you but Jean is one of Euphoria's special clients."

And apologetically, Jean added, "Oh, I'm sorry. I thought you knew. About six years ago, I was John and, for the last three, Kari has solved most of my problems. I don't know what I would have done without her. Don't be embarrassed. I understand. I've been there."

~*~

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It was Lust at first sight

2011-11-22T19:14:00.000-08:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy": When Kim met Kari

The lounge was crowded that night and we were five minutes away from a break when she walked in. Her short blonde hair was head and shoulders above the crowd and that black slinky dress punctuated her presence like a movie star at a command performance gala. I was captivated, my gaze locked on the most beautiful creature I'd ever seen! Could this vision be true? Was she all that I imagined? Suddenly, the momentary fantasy of her arms around me, our lips touching, our bodies melting together into one sensual being, was broken by the sound of, "ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR" as the count for the next song brought me back to reality.

She stood at the edge of the dance floor until we ended the set and stared at me as I got down from the stage. I walked toward her, smiling, wondering if this would result in meaningless conversation or another empty sexual encounter. But, there was something different this time; something that made me oblivious to everyone else in the room. She was beautiful beyond imagination and my heart raced faster and faster as I approached.

"Hi, my name is Kari," she said before I could open my mouth. "I love your music."

"Thanks," I said while glancing around to see who she was with.

"I'm here for a seminar in the ballroom..., with friends..., but I had to come in here and see who was making those wonderful sounds! How late do you play tonight? I'd like to hear more and I can be back in an hour."

"We'll be here till one but, for you, I'll make sure to wait."

"Then I'll see you in a little while," she said running her index finger down my shirt. "It's a date then..., yes?"

"Definitely," I said with a grin realizing how dorky my previous statement must have sounded. Then I opened my mouth trying to recover but managed only to stammer a few incoherent, "Ah's" and "Um's". With a thoughtful expression, she tapped my chest, winked and left me standing there confused, anxious and hoping I hadn't scared her away.

The next set seemed to take forever but, halfway through our last one, I saw her sitting all the way back in a corner, alone. The girls in the band saw me rushing to lock up and quietly sang, "Kimmy's gonna get laid..., again, again, again!"

"Ha! Now what makes you think that?"

Gina whispered in my ear, "Careful Kimmy, she's way over six feet tall in those heels. You might get hurt!"

"Come on, I don't even know her!"

"No, but she knows you."

What do you mean? I've never seen her before tonight."

"She was here last night asking about you but you couldn't see past those tits you were drooling over so I told her you were available."

I didn't want to show it but my heart skipped a beat when I heard that statement. "Gina...! I wasn't drooling. What did she say..., last night I mean, when you said I was available?"

"She's here isn't she? And she's all alone. Come on dummy, she must be interested and she's gorgeous so stop drooling and go meet her!"

I locked down the keyboards and flew across the room with a nervous fluttering in my stomach. Talking to women, no matter what their age or appearance, was something I had become very good at but this time, it was different. She was tall, blonde, beautiful, athletic, buxom and sophisticated; in short, the girl of my dreams.

"Hi...," she said in a soft almost singing voice as I approached the table. "I was hoping you'd keep our date."

I smiled, sat and ordered drinks. "I'm glad you came back. How was your seminar?"

"It went well. We had good attendance."

"Yeah..., what's it about?"

"Battered women, but let's talk about you. I've had enough teaching for one week. How old are you Kimmy?"

I thought I had gotten used to that frequent question but this time, I blushed and mumbled, "I just turned eighteen."

"Just..., when was your birthday?"

"Yesterday...."

"Oooooo...," she cooed. "Your eighteenth birthday, we'll have to ––" But, just then, the rest of the band came to the table.

"We're going to the cafe for breakfast." said Gina. "Are you two coming with us?"

"Oh, right..., breakfast, would you like to join us Kari?"

She smiled, looked into my eyes and breathed, "I'd love to!"

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The passport says "male". How can Kimmy travel?

2011-11-09T10:02:00.000-08:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy": The passport says "male". How can Kimmy travel?

When the first vial was full, the nurse replaced it with a second empty one. "Sorry Kimmy, but we need a bit more blood this time.

"Why," I asked, "is something wrong?"

"No, no, it's just for some additional testing in the lab. Have you been having any problems with your hormone regimen?"

"Other than being a little more emotional than usual, no, no problems at all."

"Well, that's to be expected. There, all done! The doctor wants to see you after she's had a chance to look at your test results. Is tomorrow morning okay for you?"

"Sure, what time?"

"I'll find out and let you know."

A month of hormone therapy had passed but, the only physical change I noticed was the increased sensitivity in my nipples. Kari loved being able to arouse and tease me by kissing and sucking them and I anxiously awaited the day when I no longer needed falsies. That will be so cool, I thought. Even the guilt and self-disgust that always plagued me every time I fantasized about being pretty was no longer a problem. It had evaporated from my mind along with the rest of my past and I liked wearing high heels, short skirts and makeup. They felt wonderfully right and I was learning more and more about taking care of my feminine self. The 'me' I had always fantasized about was finally blossoming into reality.

The next morning after the doctor saw me and made a slight change to my prescription, I met Kari in Ginger's office. We all said "Good morning," and sat down, whereupon, Ginger informed us of a little problem we might have.

"I can't do anything about your passport Kimmy and, looking like that, you might be asking for trouble at security and customs."

"What trouble...?" began Kari and then realized that my passport said 'male'. "Oh no, what can we do Ginger? Everything's already booked."

"Right now, it's fairly easy to solve. Kimmy, you can't wear makeup, nails, earrings or women's clothes and if you comb your hair back like you used to, I think you'll get through just fine."

Kari and I looked at each other with pouty expressions for a second and then I said, "I'll do it. I don't want to ruin our vacation so I'll go back to being a boy."

Kari stood up and put a finger to her lips, thinking. "Wait a minute Ginger. How about this..., what if Euphoria did a promotional tour? I'm the CEO and Kimmy can be the model we transformed! We can take before and after photos for the promotion and, if necessary, show them to the customs officials. Would that work?"

"Creative as always Kari," said Ginger leaning back in her chair, "but that would be pretty iffy! It's customary to travel as oneself and put on the alternate persona after arriving. One homophobic customs official could really ruin your day. Or your whole vacation for that matter."

"It's okay Kari. I'll be the boy. Besides, I know we'll have fun no matter how I'm dressed."

"But after all you've been through, I don't want you to have to go back to ––"

"Shush, as long as I'm with you, I'm happy."

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Completely In Her Loving Hands

2011-10-08T10:19:00.000-07:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" by R H Politz

With a huge sigh, I flopped down on the bed. “Well…, it seems that all my secrets are out. Whew!” Her sweet smiling face encouraged me to confess everything so I gulped down my fears and continued. “Yeah, the truth is..., I’ve always wanted to be a girl but never thought about changing my genitals. The thought of having sex with a man makes me sick.”

“Ha! I know that feeling…, which is why I was so confused when I saw this beautiful boy on a stage and wanted to wrap myself around him.”

“Really…?”

“Really, and when I got to know him, it became more than that and I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I want to be with him, or her, forever!”

“But, if we do this, what about, I mean, if I change, you might not like me anymore. I don’t want to lose you because I’m some kind of he-she freak.”

Kimmy, I love you. It’s more than sex…, although I really love that too. Ha, boy, do I! Anyway, you’ve become someone who's..., well…, I really need you and the only thing I’m afraid of is that I’ll lose you to someone else.”

“That'll never happen..., never! But..., tell me how this kind of thing works.”

“It’s a process but we’ve helped quite a few men become women at Euphoria and we have the best doctors and treatments in the world. I’ve seen it happen to others and now I can give you the best birthday present of all. I want whatever you want as long as we do it together.”

"Are you sure that something like this won't drive us apart?"

"No one can predict the future but, based on what Ginger said, you'll probably never be happy until you do something about those feelings and if you're unhappy with yourself, you'll probably become unhappy with me and I couldn't stand that!"

"Well..., I don't know. How would you feel if I wore makeup?"

"We're the same skin tone so I could borrow it. Or you could borrow mine."

"And if I wore panties and stockings?"

"We could get matching g-strings."

"Ha! What if I had breasts?"

"I'd caress them and suck your nipples all night while I played with your delicious clit."

"Oooooo, now there's a fantasy I've had a lot. So..., you think I should really do this?"

"Absolutely and tomorrow, I'm going to buy you a whole new wardrobe. Deal...?"

"Wow, you do have a way of making me do anything you want. Deal...!"

"Great! Let's get some sleep. You're going to have a busy day tomorrow."

I ran my finger over her breast and playfully said, "Could we just ––"

She let out a giggle and pushed me away. "No more Kimmy. I've had three wonderful orgasms and I know you've had at least one and we have to get some sleep."

I sighed and frowned.

"Now don't pout. You'll make me change my mind and besides, you made me wait in the shower remember? So, now it's my turn. I'm in control and you have to do what I say."

"Yes Ma'am. I'm your obedient sex slave."

The Jocks, the Girls and a Feeling of Love

2011-09-30T18:50:00.000-07:00

In this excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy," Kim is attacked and warned.

We stayed together as late as I dared Sunday night but I had to get back for finals on Monday. It was hard to say goodbye but we each had our own commitments and I'd be seeing her again the following Friday. As I drove back, I thought about that whirlwind weekend and I was happier than I had ever been. By Thursday afternoon, I finished exam week confident I'd keep my 4.0 grade average and when I left the classroom, two hot looking sorority girls came over to me and said, "We're having a party at the house on Sunday Kim and we'd love it if you'd come."

"Gee, thanks but our last gig is this weekend so I won't be here."

"But you guys don't play on Sunday do you? You'll be back by then and the party doesn't start till five. Come on, we promise you'll have fun!"

"No, really, I can't make it. Sorry."

With pouting expressions, Mary and Liz each ran a finger over my chest and through the buttons of my shirt. "Awwww..., are you sure? It's the last party before everyone goes home for the summer and a lot of the girls want to see you before leaving. I know I do." "Me too," echoed Liz.

That sorority seemed to have a penchant for making casual sex a hobby. It was a boy's fantasy if they liked you but I was no longer interested in anyone except Kari. "No, I can't. I really have to work at the ––"

Just then, a group of jocks walked over and one of them pushed me against the wall. "You asshole fag," he screamed in my face, "I hear you fucked Tina. Is it true?"

"I.., I don't know what you're talking about!"

The girls tried to step in but he pushed them away and grabbed my throat.

"Now she's talking about sensitivity and manners. What'd you say to her asshole?"

"Nothing...! I don't know ––"

"You lying son of a bitch, if I ever see or hear that you even talked to her again, I'll rip that pretty faggot face off and stuff it up your ass. Don't you ever go near my property again! Got it...!"

Then he knocked me down with a punch to the side of my face and turned to leave. "Fucking faggot bitch," he muttered. One of his buddies laughed and said, "You should transfer to some other school next year if you want to live bitch!"

The girls knelt down to see how badly I was hurt. "Kim, are you all right," asked Mary running a finger over my swelling cheek.

"Yeah, I'll be okay."

"Now you know why most of us don't date the jocks here," said Liz. "Property he called her, that's how they all think. They're the assholes!"

When I stood up, I felt dizzy for a second. I shook my head and felt my cheek. Liz saw my anger welling up. "Don't even think about getting back at him Kim. He's almost a foot taller and twice your weight and the bastard's not worth it."

"Don't worry Liz, I wouldn't be that stupid. Besides, school's over for this year. Ouch, that hurts!"

"I can nurse you back to health Kim," said Mary. "I'm pre-med, remember?"

I laughed remembering the fun I had had with Mary and Liz but Kari filled my thoughts with something more, something unique and wonderful. "I'll bet you could Mary but I've got a lot to do."

"Well..., okay then. Guess we won't see you till the fall." Then they hugged and kissed me. Suddenly, they looked at each other. "Liz, did you notice what I noticed? Something’s different!"

"Yeah," said Liz. You...? Then they both chimed out, "Kim, have you found someone? You've never kissed us like that before."

My face turned red. "I..., well..., it's ––"

They looked at each other and burst out with, "Kim is in love!" Then they hugged me.

"I'm so happy for you," said Mary.

"Me too," added Liz. "We've always had fun with you but every, well…, almost every girl in the house has worried about you all year! You just never seemed happy."

"This is great!" said Mary squeezing me and then they started with, "Who is she? Do we know her? Is she a student here?"

"Come on..., love...? I just met her last Friday and we spent the weekend together. I don't know if we'll ever have any kind of ––"

And Mary finished my sentence with, "Relationship! Kim's got a relationship. I knew it! Kim, you are in love! Wheeeeee...!"

Then, with a pouting expression, Liz whined. "Your face lights up when you even think about this mystery woman. Guess you aren't going to play with us anymore..., are you?"

"I..., you know..., um, I don't know."

"Yeah, you don't know but we can tell."

All I could do was grin as they hugged and congratulated me. At least some of the girls at school really were my friends.

Love, Lust and Conspiracy - What's it About?

2011-09-26T20:26:00.000-07:00

An erotic story about a boy who became a girl (or "Shemale" for lack of a better "label"), and the girl who loved him no matter what.

From the beginning they were soul mates who shared a deep love that knew no bounds. Even his transition was welcomed by the beautiful woman who helped and supported him every step of the way. And what a journey it was; filled with laughter, tears, discoveries, sex and danger.

WARNING: This story contains strong sexual scenes between two young people deeply in love and willing, no desiring to experiment and play on the kinky side of sensual games.

It's a hot and steamy view into the world of transgender and lesbian sex. But, more than that, it's about a deep love most people want but few will ever experience.

Excerpt - What's going on in Brazil?

2011-09-25T07:51:00.000-07:00

Love, Lust and Conspiracy - eBook

"Kimmy, you're full of surprises and wise beyond your years. Beyond my years too and I'm the one with the MBA. What should we do?"

"Give me a week to work on this and then..., ta-ta..., we should go back to Brazil!"

"Goodie, another chance to tease you on the airplane; I'll have Shelly make the arrangements."

"No, don't do that. We don't know who talks to who so just tell her you'll be out of the office for a few days so we won't be discovered. If Shelly tells your Brazil spa to pick us up at the airport, they'll know we're coming."

"Oh..., right! Are you a spy or something? You know way too much for an eighteen year old."

I burst out laughing. "Spy..., me...? Come on!" An hour later, we went to Kari's office and rehearsed. I would be the American going in for a complete treatment and would pay in cash while Kari watched everything my hidden cameras transmitted to her laptop. We hadn't decided how to handle the results but first, we had to confirm everything before she could make a rational decision. "Why", was the big question!

During the flight, we discussed everything except sex which made me a little disappointed and encouraged at the same time. After all, we couldn't spend all of our time in bed. Kari was brilliant in knowing what her customers wanted and how much they would pay but knew very little about computers, so it appeared I could provide her business with a valuable tool it was currently lacking and that made me feel worthwhile.

I took a deep breath and walked into Euphoria Brasilia's lobby. "Hi, I'm Jami and I have an appointment." Kari and I had gone in very early the last time and few employees were there but I didn't want to take the chance on someone remembering the owner's friend Kimmy.

"Hi Jami, yes, I've got you in salon one. How will you be paying today?"

"Cash if that's all right."

"Perfectly, let's see. I'm showing a Brazilian wax, cut and color and makeup. Are you going to a party or something special?"

"Well, yes actually. I'm meeting someone later today and I want to look my best."

"We'll make sure you're absolutely gorgeous when you leave here. That'll be nine hundred dollars American."

I counted out the money and handed it to her. "How soon can we get started? I guess I'm a little anxious."

"Right now...! Come on, I'll take you."

I picked up my purse hoping I had aimed the hidden camera in the right direction and followed her to the salon. She whispered something to the attendant and left.

"Hello Jami. My name is Alana. If you would undress please, we'll get started."

The attendants did a marvelous job and I almost forgot the real reason I was there. I tipped them, said thank you and left. The hotel was only a short distance away so I decided to walk and enjoy being back to Kimmy for a while in the warm afternoon breeze. Brasilia is amazingly beautiful and I stopped frequently to look in shop windows or gaze at the unique architecture and, several times, men smiled at me and made comments about the "beautiful girl". I felt pretty again but, I was definitely not interested in men, or anyone else for that matter, and I continued on to the hotel where my love was waiting.

Whew! That was SCARY...!

2011-08-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy":

After the police sorted out who was who and we were being treated in the back of two ambulances, Valerie and Blinky popped in.

"So," she said with a huge grin after she saw we were okay, "I finally get to meet your girlfriend. You must be Kari. I'm Valerie."

Kari was still pretty dazed and just nodded but I jumped up and hugged and kissed her and then Blinky. "I'm so glad to see you guys," I blubbered with tears streaming. "Thanks for helping. I've never been so scared in my life!"

They both laughed and Valerie said, "Well, from what we heard, it sounds like you are one bad-ass girl Kimmy. You and your butler left a trail of dead bodies that'll take a week to clean up."

"I know. But it was awful and Alfred got shot."

(I wonder if he will recover?)

Staying cool under stress.

2011-08-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

Excerpt from "Love, Lust and Conspiracy"

By the time we got down the stairs, we were out of bullets and one man stood in our way. He heard the clicks of empty magazines and relaxed with a smile.

"You make my day not so too good huh? So..., I make your day worse."

He pointed his gun at Alfred looking for some sign of fear but Alfred's expression changed not one iota. That seemed to disappoint him.

"Maybe I kill your girls first huh? How you like that tough man?"

"If you kill us, we can't make you happy," I said trying to sound affectionate while my hand found one of the atomizers in my pocket. "And I'll bet we can make you feel really good!"

(Yup. It was a tough situation for Alfred, Kimmy and Kari.)

A TGirl's Love, Happiness and Danger.

2011-07-29T14:49:00.000-07:00

Excerpt from Love, Lust and Conspiracy

2011-07-20T19:38:00.000-07:00

It's time for a new video for Love, Lust and Conspiracy. Perhaps I should do one for this scene. After all, it's Kim and Kari's first time!

***

We walked nonchalantly through the lobby but, as soon as we entered her suite, she grabbed me by the shoulders and said, "You're really beautiful," and gave me a long passionate kiss. Kari is six feet tall and, with four inch heels elevating her even more, my neck was bent backwards further than it had ever been. Then she hugged me while running one hand through my hair and the other up and down my back. "I've wanted to be with you ever since I first saw you," she breathed. "And for me, that's really unusual!"

"Well I'm happy that––" but before I could say any more, she put a hand on each side of my face and slid her tongue into my mouth.

"Me too," she said with another hug and another even deeper kiss.

We collapsed on the bed and my lips finally reached her sensitive neck. As the tip of my tongue touched her ear, she moaned and said, "Don't get me excited too fast. I want this to last." I started to unbutton my shirt but she stopped me and breathed into my ear, "Let me do that."

When we stood up, she unbuttoned my shirt and kissed my skin all way down to my belt and then ran the tip of her tongue back up to my neck as she gently pulled my arms from the sleeves. "Now do me," she breathed into my ear.

I wonder what storyboard pictures I can come up with for that scene. Oh well. Guess I'll just have to do more research. Stay tuned for more excerpts.

A Love Story with a Twist

2011-07-01T11:37:00.000-07:00

This erotic tale of sex, love and murder is based on the life of a boy who suffered endless mockery and ridicule till a beautiful woman changed all the rules. Kim and Kari were haunted by psychological secrets but, when they met, a deep passionate love quickly blossomed. Their dreams had come true... until... they disrupted the business of international smugglers. Suddenly, their very lives were at stake.

Fall in love with two young soulmates who discover love. Laugh at their antics, cry at their pent up emotions and thrill at their creative play as they experiment and learn that life can be interesting and sometimes very dangerous.

Get it on your Kindle, Nook, iPad and other eReaders as well as a traditional paperback book.

Father's Day

2011-06-19T10:35:00.000-07:00

It's Father's Day but Kimmy's father disowned him and his mother was no longer alive. Sadness filled his heart but life would go on and the future would unfold in surprising ways.

The Video for Love, Lust and Conspiracy

2011-04-06T12:11:00.000-07:00

I'm surprised at how popular this video has become but I'm not complaining.

A Valentine for my Special Girls

2011-02-11T22:18:00.000-08:00

Storyboards for the sequel

2010-10-19T13:09:00.000-07:00

Creating storyboards can be a lot of fun and it keeps me on track as I write a complex storyline.

Here's one I just did for the sequel to Love, Lust and Conspiracy

Kimmy and Kari are vacationing in England and take part in an ancient secret ritual to cleanse their inner being. Stripped of her clothes to signify her separation from worldly possessions, Kimmy searches the sacred pool for some indication of her destiny. It sounded like a very strange thing to do but they were surprised at what she found.

This chapter is a fun little break from the stresses and worries of their lives. Bit of a vacation so to speak, just two lovers touring and enjoying being together to explore, laugh, love and be happy. Soon however, they must get back to business. Kimmy has another performance coming up and they are both looking forward to attending the infamous "Rubber Ball". But, those matters are in other chapters. More storyboards will be needed but, just getting the photos may be fun and exciting.

Kindle book sales increase.

2010-08-14T08:04:00.000-07:00

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The Kindle version of "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" by R H Politz is outselling the Paperback Book by 5 to 1 and it's no wonder. You can start reading this unique Adult Erotic Romance novel right away and enjoy the excitement of a deep love between two people who have the courage to live life to the fullest.

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The origin of "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" by R H Politz

2010-07-10T20:05:00.000-07:00

Although I've changed the names and places to protect the identities of individuals, many events, descriptions and quotes in "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" actually happened. Both Kim and Kari really were physically and psychologically as I described and their relationship really was the kind that many people envied.
Now I'm not going to say this erotic romance story is factual. That would be misleading since I used a bit of literary license to fill in certain spots and organize the plot. It is, however, a story of deep passionate unbridled love. Wouldn't it be wonderful to find and experience such love yourself? Kimmy and Kari did.

This novel contains descriptive scenes of a sexual nature so, if you are offended by such material, please do not continue. On the other hand, if the lives of two young energetic people who experience pounding butterflies in the stomach, who fall deeply in love and experiment with sexual play as they meld into one being interests you, then please, by all means, read on. It's a great story about passion, tears, laughter, sex and, above all, that rare thing we call love. "Love, Lust and Conspiracy" is a heartwarming and sensual journey seen through the eyes of two very special people.

* Foreword *

"The only open seat in the hospital waiting room was next to a stunningly beautiful girl who appeared extremely distressed and ready to cry. For almost and hour we sat in silence then, a doctor wearing scrubs walked in and we both jumped up. He told me it would be several hours before we’d know so I sat down and fought back my tears.

We both waited for word about a loved one in serious medical trouble and that’s where our conversation started but this story is not about me, it’s about Kim. I am the mere note taker who, over the next few years, listened and put her emotional words to paper; words about puberty, tears, sex, suicidal thoughts, her work as a musician, a singer, a dancer and finally, as a woman who never gave up no matter what it took.

You see, Kim was once a boy."
Anna S. Alst

Read * Chapters One and Two at the Page Links Top Right *

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